Today was my birthday, and naturally I wanted Sam to be with me today. I kept thinking I needed him here to have a good birthday that I forgot about those who were psychically with me that wanted me to have a wonderful day. So, as I was walking to my car in the freezing rain I cleared my head of the need for Sam and changed it into a want for Sam, and I put that want on the side of my brain rather than upfront so I could focus on those around me. Of course, I still missed him dearly and think about him all the time, but I was able to enjoy myself and embrace the love from the others around me enough so my heart ache for him was lowered. Luckily, I was able to facetime with him today, and the fact that I didn't make a need to see him but a want to see him made our time together even more special.
The moral of this whole thing is to pay attention to how much your mood depends on your significant others distance from you. I know for me that's been hard to understand, it's taken me over month to realize this. You and your other can't do anything about the distance and the speed of time, so embrace the love and companionship around you. Keep your significant other in your hear and in your mind, but don't place them up front, other wise you maybe blinded to those around you that can help you along the way. Like the post Cait made a couple days ago, make a support group around you, surround yourself around health people that make you happy. Let family and friends fill that part of you that's missing the best they can till your loved one comes home.Not only will it help you feel better but it can make the time go by faster.
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